In the past month I’ve begun watching a YouTube channel that absolutely appalls me.
I haven’t the slightest idea why I watch it. There is no good reason. I don’t get anything out of it except a sense of horror. Nor do I understand it.
YouTube is a weird place. You can find genuinely informative videos that teach you something or help you fix something and then you get some channels that you just don’t understand. Or at least I don’t.
The channel I’m talking about is a cooking show hosted by a woman who seems very nice, and who is super morbidly obese. She cooks an awful lot of different kinds of foods, from savory to sweet. I haven’t been able to find one yet that is comprised of ingredients that are good for you The cakes, puddings, and different kinds of cookies would put a diabetic into a coma.
I don’t know why I watch. I don’t know why it fascinates me, unless it’s a sense of disbelief for what someone is eating. Trust me, even in my eating crap days I wouldn’t have made one of these recipes.
What somebody else eats is none of my business and I recognize that on a conscious, intellectual level. Why, then, am I so fascinated with this woman’s insistence on making everything unbelievably sweet or filled with savory and not good for you ingredients?
It might be voyeurism.
When I was sent to Chicago for about six weeks to help a company move their corporation to San Antonio, they flew me back every weekend. However, during the week I stayed in an apartment on the 30th floor in a high rise called Park Place. I wasn’t all that happy about it, because I swear I could feel the building sway in a high wind. But I found out something weird about myself. I was absolutely fascinated to sit in the living room and watch all the windows of all the high-rises around me. It was like Rear Window. I wanted to know what was going on in all those apartments.
Or it could just be being a writer. We’re invariably curious. Or nosy. 🙂
What do you think?